Originally posted on Facebook on August 24, 2013
Surgery Countdown – 2 Days.
I did something super hard today… And it might not seem super hard to you, but it was super hard for me. Remember this ad?
Imagine that instead of drinking coffee, it’s going to the movies. And instead of a cigarette, it’s popcorn. That’s me.
I’ve got a few things that I always have put together. Movies in a theater and popcorn is one of them. I’ve cut down on the butter product over the years (sometimes I don’t have any!). But there is something about the delicious crunchy-ness and settling in in the dark to watch something big and magical.
Today we went to see “The World’s End.” We’ve been looking forward to it forever. And it was good. But that’s besides the point.
I didn’t have popcorn. I had water. And smelled as V ate a hot dog. It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. I had my fake mocha frapp-a-protein-cino in the car on the way there, so I wasn’t hungry. And they were kind enough to not pop anything fresh while I was standing there. One of the big things they talk about in all the material for any weight loss surgery is that it WILL NOT solve your emotional issues with food. You have to do your own work and solve those. And while I think I have done lots of work, I always think I need to do more. Of course.
We all do.
But I had a blinding flash of the obvious today when I enjoyed the movie without popcorn. And, really, I didn’t miss it either. It was a major triumph. It helped strengthen my resolve.
But, please, don’t tell anyone about the small spoonful of homemade chocolate sauce I had after dinner. OK?