honesty time

Originally posted on Facebook, August 13, 2013

Time for some honesty… are you ready?

On August 26 I’m going to have a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. I can count on one hand the number of people I have told. I don’t know why, but for the past 7 months, I’ve kept this part of life super secret. I didn’t even tell my mom until a few months ago. 

Perhaps it’s acknowledging the shame I feel about my own body shape.

No, it’s not that. I’m fat and beautiful. I’ve always felt that way; I’ve never felt shameful about it. 

I think it was the fear that people would tell me it was a bad choice. That I could do something else. That it was a stupid unhealthy decision. And I didn’t want to hear that. I still don’t. As the date has grown closer, I’ve told a few more people, mostly my lovely and trusted clients, because I will be out of commission for about 2 weeks. I’ve heard nothing but supportive, love-filled acceptance. In that spirit, I’ve decided to share it with all of you, interwebs world. Because you all are my friends, and if you decide to walk this path with me, I will gladly take your love-filled support.

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